Thank You, Jesus

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Dearest Heavenly Father,

Thank you—

Thank you for allowing me to struggle. Thank you for allowing me to experience trials like so many others in the world. Thank you, Lord, for through these struggles my eyes have been opened.

Though this journey with anxiety has been hard; through it you have made me able to relate to others. You’ve taught me coping strategies and ways to calm my heart that I’ve been able to pass on to friends.  I’ve learned more about trusting you in just a few short years than I had in my entire life. Thanks to the struggle, I got to witness some of your greatest work in my heart.

Though this journey with chronic pain has been difficult; through it you have taught me humility and compassion. You’ve completely challenged my selfish mindset and renewed my heart in ways I didn’t think possible. Thanks to this battle, I’ve experienced love for others deeper than I’ve ever felt before. Instead of asking, “why me?” you’ve brought a counselor into my life who taught me to ask instead “why not me?” Because of that one simple phrase, you’ve given me a whole new perspective on compassion and praying for others who are facing battles as well.

Though this journey of motherhood in the midst of trials has been incredibly challenging for me, you’ve used it for good. By allowing the struggle, you’ve given my kids an opportunity to see a mom who refuses to give up even when she really feels like it. You’ve taught me to appreciate the little things and to live life moment by moment. I’ve found a new appreciation for daily life with my babies, all because you’ve allowed challenges to come my way.

Lord, thank you for being bigger than this world and giving perspective to restless hearts like mine. Thank you for protecting me each and every time the Enemy attacks. You are the strongest, most faithful, most compassionate Father. I am so thankful that you are in control of my life, because you see things far beyond what I can even imagine.

And I know that through these trials the Holy Spirit is transforming me daily and shaping me more and more into the image of Christ. For that, I am eternally grateful.